Happy New Year

As I look over my vision board for 2017, I am faced with the reality that I (you ready for it) suck!!! I managed to only complete one of the four things that I so carefully thought about enough to beautifully construct onto a board. It was cute too!!! Truth be told, had I not been blessed, I may have very well been zero for four and that's the truth of the matter. I was soooooooo ready for 2017 and I felt that it would be a year of incredible progress. What I didn't anticipate was life happening. I know. I know. I know. Life is always happening, right? But it's one thing when life is happening around you and when life is happening to you. Yup, life has a way of showing up on your front doorstep like an uninvited house guest overstaying its welcome. Life happened to me in 2017 in a real way and to be honest, I can't even remember most of the year. All I know is that life brought death to my house and I loss 4 beautiful people who will be greatly missed. Annnnnd I didn't even think that I could feel grief like that again. I thought since I had lost the most important person in my life (my mother) nothing would ever hurt that bad but I was wrong. I can't tell you how I hurt in 2017. It felt like every time I started to feel like I was getting closer to acceptance in this cycle of grief, I was catapulted back to the beginning of the cycle. It was the worse feeling in the world so I went into auto-pilot as to preserve my sanity and keep from falling apart. This is not including all the other crap life dropped off when it decided to stop by my house. Needless to say, I wasn't thinking about no vision board, okay! I wasn't thinking about no goals or none of that. I wasn't tripping on a vision. I couldn't feel let alone see. I actually gained weight so that was an epic fail. I had some monumental things happen as an artist but it wasn't anything on that board, smh! And the furthest I traveled this year was a tie between Dallas and Chicago which doesn't count because I travel there all the time. Go figure! I wasn't motivated or passionate about much at all. That's my truth! However, as I look at this vision board and politely cross off those things I did not accomplish, I do so with a grateful heart. I made it to see another year in spite of life showing up unannounced.

What I realized at midnight, was that in 2017 I was truly blessed. You see, death is a gift because it helps us to realize how valuable time and love is. We get caught up in the whirlwind of life, resolutions, and the chase for success that we miss the little things. The moments that make it all worth it. That is, until death comes to open our eyes and hearts to what is most important. Although I will continue my tradition of writing my vision, the three things I will be certain to do in 2018 is love more, live, and not waste any time. I believe that in itself will help me in accomplishing the things I desire in 2018 regardless of what life decides to leave at my door. I loved and was given the opportunity to spend years of friendship and relationship with 4 very kind and beautiful spirits and death will never be able take what we shared to the grave. 

If by chance YOU didn't do what you set out to do in 2017, I have good news. There is still time!!! 2018 is here...

Love, Live, and Don't waste any time! 

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